Last week I was feeling grumpy and Dan was having a particularly rough day, and as we sat sulking on the couch, not talking and leaning away from one another, Dan asked, "Do you want to go get Capogiro?" to which I replied, "OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH."
But still, I don't think it was until just now that I realized that I am a pseudo-emotional eater. I don't think I tend to eat anytime I am sad, but psychologically, if I am stressed, sad, annoyed, or angry, and I am hungry, I tend to gravitate towards chocolate or other "treat-like" items.
I was just down in the break room at work, between classes, getting myself a cup of coffee and deciding which gross piece of junk I wanted from the candy machine in the break room. I decided on a bag of 8 Famous Amos chocolate chip cookies (which, for the record, are typically fabulous, amazing, and delicious). When I got back up to my classroom and started eating, I realized that there was something funny about this bag of cookies... they tasted burnt or stale, or chemical-y or something, just not entirely good... and as I ate the first 3, I knew I didn't like the way they tasted... but I kept eating them. After the 4th cookie I realized that what I was doing could probably be considered addict behavior, and I stopped. I thought, if I ordered a meal at a restaurant and it tasted "off" would I keep eating it? and the answer was a resounding NO, of course not! who would eat something that they didn't like if they had a choice?! So I threw the rest of the bag away.
While this is no huge diet victory, I consider it a little psychological victory. If I can understand why I am eating what I am eating, and why so much, I can potentially fix it and find other things that feel like treats... you know, healthy things... like shopping sprees!
...just kidding about the shopping, ;)
The exploits of an on-again off-again health nut with a seemingly un-satisfiable sweet-tooth.
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